I am very excited for this opportunity, and I feel it is the right thing to do and for me with every fiber of my being, but I still fear that I won't learn the language quickly or well enough, that the people I am to assist will know more than me, etc. Probably silly fears, but fears non-the-less. Obviously I was nominated and picked and accepted for a reason. Obivously something in my application and interview spurred the Peace Corps to put faith in me. My friends and family and colleagues also all have tremendous faith in me. I only hope to make everyone proud, to make myself proud, to make a difference.
I know these next two years will be difficult, I am not naive in that view. I also know that I have worked in many difficult positions and that I have overcome many difficulties in my personal life and in myself. I am strong, and it will be that strength that will see me through. I have a certain tenacity when it comes to accomplishing and completing great goals in my life. I have also grown up in a fairly independent manner, I have an open mind, and I have a desire to learn and to help. I know I will be fine, but knowing and believing are two different animals, haha.
I'm still coming to terms with that fact that I leave in a mere 5 days on a 6am flight to Philadelphia before heading off to Morocco. Of course I wish I had read more books, studied more Arabic, taken a class or two...but that time has passed. I know I can do this, :). In the words of one of my employers: "She always tries to say she can't, then when forced to, she realizes she can." That is from another job who told me: "This will be the toughest summer you'll ever love.". I seem to take on a lot of employments that tell me that...haha.
I will end this post with a poem I will always take to heart and a favorite photo taken in Ireland:
The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost |
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